My love with Cocteau twins...

I first fell in love with them because of two CDs a frd gave me. The '4 calendar Cafe' and 'Milk and Kisses'. Love them ever since! Like every other 4AD bands, they are unique and beautiful. And I happen to love their style

One of the greatest advantage staying in the States is that you can easily buy whatever CD you want. Unlike in Guangzhou, you need to go to some private stores to buy foreign CDs secretly. Hmmm, well, actually it was very fun for me. These stores mainly locate near my high school. People who listen to these CDs are more educated, and the CD sellers are kinda cool. I enjoyed hanging around there, alone or with some cool frds. I still think the frd who gave me their CDs are real cool. But who can tell he would become a governor, wearing tidy suits, appearing abidance everday? Anyway, times flies. I am still a student, dreaming a little dream...

Now I have 7 of their CDs, keep collecting//though they disband years ago..-.-b

Faye Wong has sang some of their songs and sang with them..however dont remember clearly lor...heh 

Here attached with lyrics of  Tishbite

Tishbite

I'm at a loss
I don't know what to do
Feel like a waterless Nile
Could he just hold me?
Don't fear
So full of desire
Dare into sensation

Afraid, but look what had blossomed
I don't misperceive it
There's no guarantees
I need to know
If the response is cold
I'm in the wrong place

Is it like a dream?
Or does it seem grounded and real?

I feel a connection
A deep connection
But it's not reflected
In time spent together
It's reflected psychically
Emotionally

Is it like a dream?
Or does it seem grounded and real?

This mountain of pleasure
I want to get lost in it
Sleep like a baby
Still close
Still close
Until I don't know where you end
Or I begin
Until I just carry it in me
I wanna get lost
Wanna get lost
Wanna get lost
Lost in it
We're still close
Still close

alrity...according to Michael's suggestion, when u feel down, try to write some blog...ha

I think I put a lot of pressure on myself these days, career, family, relationships...the likely failure with Goldman, unsecure feelings with Clarence...I must commit that I am quite depressed, though you prob. can't tell from my face, ha. I am looking for some conversations, real conversations with people. I suddenly remember I haven't had such kind of communications for long...feeling very lonely...

I have talked with my roommate Cheryl, she said the emotion I desire most is being taken care of, and close relationship, while still keeping some distance.complicated and conflicting, rite? ha. But it reminded me some lonelysome time in childhood. I was always the last one to be picked up. I was scared to be forgotten deep down. I should learn to be tough. I should cheer up! But more important, is to survive here. Time to be independent! I can't be beaten like this!

SO, I decided to brush my teeth and have a good rest:P

Wish you have a good day guys!